Dear Dillon,

I thought about you this Wednesday while I was at church and I had to try and stop myself from crying. We were singing the song Rooftops by Jesus Culture and we got to the chorus and it says, “Here I am, I stand, with arms wide open, to the one, the son, the everlasting God.”

At that moment I go a picture of you in my head. You were standing with your arms stretched out like you always had them when you would be completely lost in the music and the song. You were singing that part at the top of your lungs. You were dressed all in white and that was the moment I knew that you were in Heaven. And it makes me so happy that I want to cry now.

I miss you but when you sing you get to see the face of the one you are singing to. You are so so lucky. I love you and miss you so much.

Love,
Adrian

To Much To Handle?

Leviticus 20:13, "If a man practices homosexuality, having sex with another man as with a woman, both men have committed a detestable act." This is the verse that started it all. This verse is clear. This is what Christian’s believe, what I believe. We are not forcing you to believe the same way as us. But we do not bash you for what you choose to believe. I personally think that Homosexuality is a choice. I believe this because I know that God would NEVER cause someone to be BORN into a sin that he says is detestable.

Everyone has a sin that from the time they are BORN is hard for them to handle. For some it’s stealing, killing, cheating, lying, or any number of other sins. But Homosexuality is the one that our society has told us is okay, it is less of a sin than any other sin. But the Bible says in James 2:10, “For the person who keeps all of the laws except one is as guilty as a person who has broken all of God’s laws.” All sins are the same.

I have read the comments here and I see people talking about loving your neighbor. Yes you should love your neighbor, something I was taught when I was younger that I still follow to this day is, “Love the sinner, hate the sin.” I have a friend who is Gay. When I found out I was shocked but I still love him just as much now as I did before.

#writertrouble

So here's the problem with wanting to be a writer. You have to edit. And when you have spent the last year pour your heart, soul, and sweat (our coffee exhaustion) into this piece of work, you tend to get attached. However when you edit you have to criticize yourself and completely rewrite your own work and its hard.

You get distracted because you don't want to take apart your work no matter how bad you know it is. However you have to, and now it is my turn to go through this process. I have finished my work and now I have to go through and edit it. Oh boy...

Christmas

So Christmas was a lot more tiring than I thought it would be. I didn't really do much in the way of running around since I stayed home and didn't travel on Christmas day. My family actually gave out Christmas presents on Christmas Eve. Amber got a new Ipod and speakers. Christian got a X-box 360. Mom got a new fryer. Dad got a sweater and a new suit. George got a signed TobyMac CD, TobyMac shirt, hat, and poster. And I got a case for my nook with a light in it, Inheritance by Christopher Paloni, a certificate of publication for my poem, and a $100 Barnes and Noble gift card.

Christmas day we went to church and after words George and I went to his families house for the day. We opened presents and for the rest of the morning George and I sat on the couch until I fell asleep. I apparently slept for an hour and a half before I woke up to find George had fallen asleep too. That par of the day felt amazing. I can't remember the last time I was so relaxed.

After words we took there dog Mandy for a walk and when we can back we watched home movies from Christmas back in the 1960's. Watching those got me thinking about George's home movies from when he was little. I mentioned it as a passing thought and as a result we ended up watching videos of George when he was a little kid until dinner.

Monday we went on a kind of triple date with my parents and James and Amber. We went to Monical's and then we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks: Chipwrecked. It was very cute.

Tuesday my parents were gone and I didn't have to work so George and I spent about an hour and a half at McDonald's on the computer and talking. Then we went back to his house and watched more home movies for about an hour before his whole family have to leave to run errands so we went to the library where I read and downloaded 2 new books onto my Nook and George played computer games. We stayed there for about 4 hours before we decided to head back to his house (we had gotten a text from his Mom an hour before telling us she was back at the house). We ate dinner at his house and then watched more videos before I had to go home.

Well I think that was enough for this very long post. Oh just so you know George was absolutely adorable when he was little. Just like now.

Determination

I am determined now. I need to talk and I know it has been made very clear that I have horrible at keeping up with a blog and I am even worse about keeping a journal but I have decided that I need to do both now. I have to keep up with both. Even if know one reads it... because I just need to write. Writing my stories hasn't been going well lately because I have been to stressed out with finals and school and all kinds of other things. So I am going to write in this blog more often and I am going to start keeping a journal so that I have more to think about that way. I just want to get my thoughts out, my stories out, my dreams out.

Well there you go post number 1.... again

Change

Okay so it has been a while since I have written and I'm sorry about that but there has been allot going on with work and our youth group and preparing for school to start Wednesday.

I just wanted to fill you guys (who may happen to be reading) about the changes in my writing. I will still be writing Fiction. After all it's what I love to do just for fun but now I will be writing devotionals.

You see I went to this conference called CIY and while I was there God told me I was meant to write devotionals and bible studies for teen girls.

So I'm working right now so I don't have time to write more just wanted to fill you all in.

~Adrian~

My birthday

so my birthday was almost a week ago and I bet you can guess what I got....

BOOKS!!!

I got Toys by James Patterson and I got a Nook! I can't wait to download a bunch of books!

This is a short post but yea....

btw job is going great.